Yesterday, I had to wait again for Kat to get a shot at the clinic. It was a longer wait than usual and strangely it reminded me (or jumped out like a coiled snake) of the first time I spent waiting in the hospital for Kat to stabilize. It was when we first discovered she had kidney disease. I remembered it as one long mystery. At the time I felt helpless and lost. I did not know if Kat would stay alive and my whole world froze. It was a nightmare of epic proportions! The wait also reminded me how far we both recovered from this initial experience. For example, I remembered sitting and sitting trying to comprehend “if I can get out of this place of screaming patients, sad faces, and endless boredom” and if I did, what will I be able to do with my life next? At the time, I had no plans and as much as I tried neither did I have any answers. Unfortunately, it took quite a long time before Kat and I were able to get out of what I called “The Long Wait”. I say it took a little over three years and as soon as Kat went on peritoneal dialysis. Today, Kat is able to walk on nature trails (slowly) and even though Kat is still a ‘full time job’ I still find time writing here and creating photos and designs. It is just another time frame!
Mar 17 2013